Healing During the Ascension

Is Healing Different in an Ascending World?
I want to share what it has taken me to heal some longterm health issues, in case you’ve been experiencing this too. It’s been a crazy ride to be honest. The way I understand reality, we are in an ascension process. As we evolve, it means that more and more light is entering the earth to support us, but those things of shadow and darkness are coming up to be exposed and changed. This seems astoundingly obvious on a global level, but it is also personal.

For me, I’ve been experiencing this on the physical health level acutely. The last several years I have had a string of health problems that largely defied traditional medicine. They included insomnia, inflammation, severe dry eyes, fatigue, high mold exposure, back pain and sciatica that made it painful to walk for over a year.

As I was struggling with these, I was aware that working on all levels of my being – not just the physical - was essential to heal. With each one of these I explored the spiritual, emotional, mental and even past-life roots of my illness. I found a direct link related to self-love in the healing of my immune problems. I uncovered fear of my psychic gifts in healing my dry eyes. But let me share how healing my sciatica unfolded.

I tried so many different things on the physical plane and it was just up and down endlessly. I fell multiple times over the year in the exact same way to re-injure myself. Sometimes I’d get medical help and only get a couple hours of relief. Or after all the physical therapy and recommended stretches, within a few minutes I’d be back in pain.

I was very close to giving up and turning to more serious medical intervention when one of my doctors (who is highly intuitive) said to me, ”You can go the traditional route, but your body is telling me, you can heal this yourself.” I really needed to hear that, so I decided to take a bit more time to dig deeper.

I asked myself a variety of questions –

• What is this illness trying to teach me?
• What could my leg be trying to communicate?
• If this still hasn’t healed, what have I still not learned?
• Are there any stories I’m telling myself that are limiting my healing?
• Is there any past-life connection that needs healing here?
• Am I holding self-judgement or lacking forgiveness in some area?

I kept asking for help internally – to have any guidance that would help me finally heal this. I sat in meditation regularly, inviting in love, grace, the care of the divine mother - whatever you want to call it - to heal by body. One by one I started uncovering pieces of a puzzle that were related to my sense of balance, empowerment and my relationship with the masculine (as represented by the right side of the body where I had sciatica).

I felt I was unravelling a massively tangled web. I uncovered a past life where I had turned on the divine feminine as a monk, which was very painful to look at for me. My guides told me it was a karmic debt but changeable. As I forgave myself and asked for forgiveness in that timeline, I got significantly better immediately for the first time. I was 80% better that day, and I was ecstatic.

Yet some pain kept reappearing afterwards. Then a last communication came through journaling. I realized my leg felt like stomping… saying “Stop, stop.”

I asked, “Stop what?”

The answer was “Stop placating X… stop giving your power away.”

Perhaps it seems like a small thing, but I’m aware some relationships in my life are tougher than others. There was a place I was doing this and excusing it by labeling it as being patient. And now I knew: I was in an unempowered pattern.

I told myself, "Ok, I got the message, can you take the rest of the pain away?" In response, I had this clear sense that it was only a “Yes" if I followed through on this.

I committed to myself and immediately I felt 100% pain-free, for the first time in over a year. I can't tell you how happy I felt. But that wasn’t quite the end of the story. Within a day or so, I had the perfect opportunity to stop this old pattern and felt acutely that I needed to keep my word. I pushed through the fear of facing this person and stayed in my power.

Now a few weeks later, I can say – I’m still feeling 100% pain free and beginning to rebuild my physical strength and mobility. I am so happy to be feeling good, so grateful to everyone who was a part of this journey for me, and for all healing it offered me in my relationship with the masculine and my sovereignty.

Note: Above is a picture of Sabu and me in Malibu after going down 300+ stairs to the beach and even walking on the rocks last weekend. It was exhilarating to be able to enjoy life again.